world of tom.

cool, come to tumblr and get the last episode of the office spoiled for you.

you people should be ashamed of yourselves.

There’s a reason I act negatively towards some people. I think they deserve it on some small level. I have a tendency to lie a lot. I will lie right to  your face about what I’m going to do. Then I will go off and do whatever it is that I want. It’s like making a wish with the devil. I will give what you want, but in return I’ll make it even. 

If you want something from me, I expect a little humility. Don’t order me around. I don’t respond well to that. Asking me, asking my favor, considering my views and opinions wins you the gold every time. “Can you do me a favor, will you please XXXXX” goes a long, long way. 

I’ve broken my job down into things I feel are important enough to get me fired if I screw up, and the majority of things being inconsequential. I do not need to be fast. I don’t even need to be accurate. I just need to be attentive. That’s all that negatively affects my position and there’s nothing anyone else can do to change that. 

What the fork did you just forking say about me, you little dongle? I’ll have you know I graduated top of my sales class at ITT Tech, and I’ve been involved in numerous tech related conferences, and I have over 300 confirmed complaints filed on my fellow coworkers. I am trained in feminist ideology and I’m the forker in the entire tech sales division. You are nothing to me but just another oppressor . I will wipe you the fork out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Earth, mark my forking words. You think you can get away with saying that dongle like that to me over the Internet? Think again, forker. As we speak I am contacting my network of feminist and your job is being is being taken right now so you better prepare for the storm, dongle. The storm that wipes out the pathetic little thing you call your life. You’re forking dead, kid. I can be anywhere, anytime, and I can have sent to HR in over seven hundred ways, and that’s just with tweets. Not only am I extensively trained in ethical workplace conduct , but I have access to the entire arsenal of the SRS and feminist movement and I will use it to its full extent to wipe your miserable dongle off the face of the continent, you little dong. If only you could have known what unholy retribution your little clever joke was about to bring down upon you, maybe you would have held your forking tongue. But you couldn’t, you didn’t, and now you’re paying the price, you goddongling idiot. I will fork dongle all over you and you will drown in it. You’re forking dead, kiddo.

3 hours left. Working alone tonight at CCU. Why would you call a school at 9pm during holiday break to ask about tuition payment information?

I’ve been obsessed with Camera Obscura lately, it’s heavenly.

Holidays in North Myrtle Beach are really pretty dull. This year it was hardly cold at all. Maybe Al Gore was right!?

I like to keep tabs on what I spent vs what I got. Overall I did good this year, but overspent on a few select people where I probably shouldn’t have. But I suppose there’s enough satisfaction in getting someone a “good” gift vs whatever I could find for $20. Still, I suppose I live rent free atm so I do what I can around the holidays. Don’t even remember who got who what. I just know there was a Kindle Fire, a TV, and someone got a Magic Bullet.

Saw The Hobbit last week with Dad and little brother. I thought it was pretty enjoyable to be honest. It had the same feel as the other movies, so it fits in quite well. I’d love to see it again to be honest. The 3D wasn’t that jarring as some films can be, and it was supposed to be 48FPS…but to be honest I really didn’t notice that. Maybe my theater doesn’t have what they claim to.. Oh and some asshat was on his phone for half the movie in front of me, distracting the ever-loving shit out of me. Who does that shit? I was considering shooting some spitwads at it if he didn’t pack it up. Who the fuck texts in a big dark theater?

So I ask Kelly what she wants to eat tonight and she said she’s broke. So I go and buy a Little Caesars $5 pizza and it’s just sitting here half ate.

Last time I try to be generous. Last time.

I really feel that my department at work is constantly getting the shaft with no voice of reason fighting on our behalf. I really cannot see much of a future for me here with the way things are going. I’ve been working here 2.5 years without a raise. I did get promoted so there was a substantial pay increase there, but when it came time to talk about raises—my time-limited position was cast aside since they could only afford raises for full time employees. Sure, it was only a few weeks after my promotion so I didn’t expect much—but in the end it shows how respected you are at your position to be considered for a very modest raise.

My level of income would be described as low class. If I didn’t live with my parents, I highly doubt I could support myself. If I could, it would be paycheck to paycheck with very little wiggle room and absolutely no savings invested. 

I suppose I should cite college loans being my #1 aggressor in this battle to stay in the black every two weeks. My spending outside of this has been relatively minimal, but there’s some definite improvement that could be made. So in the end the battle plan remains the same. I keep saving as much as possible for my move out west. Enough to keep me stable for at least 3 months while paying down my loans/car. 

But what needs to be questioned is whether or not I put in my 100% at work, or go with the minimum. I’m a very personable person and manipulative to that behalf. I could likely get by with minimal work put in, but still retain a positive image in the eyes of my superiors because of this; if I so choose. At least when I was under the impression someone gave a shit about my job, and the jobs of the others in the dispatch department, I’d give it a real honest effort. Right now, I think the lack of action makes the best reaction until things are more concrete around here. 

I’m approaching the big 25 very soon. I’m not sure how I feel about it. I’d like to say this is pretty much the end of my adolescence, but it’s felt like that for years now. I feel like I should be focusing on the big picture stuff now. Some kind of game plan for how my next 10-15 years will play out. I already took care of the vehicle portion. I really like the Prius. All of my cars have had problems, and it’s nice to have one that’s pretty much perfect. The black Grand Prix had broken AC, paint fading, and my passenger fender flew off. My Explorer’s AC was almost always broken or horrible, needed a lot of transmission work, and had a smaller sitting area than my little Pontiac. The Altima was a little shitbox, but the AC worked well until about 8 months ago. It had lots of rust, a fucked up passenger fender too from the accident with the deer, and the thing was scary to ride in because of how much it vibrated; but overall it was a pretty good little car for the price I paid. 

I’m starting to consider alternate employment. I like my job here at Coastal, but I recognize there’s no opportunity for advancement. Well when shit gets more real, I don’t think I can support myself on this salary. There are dispatcher jobs all over the country, I’m pretty confident I could find other work if I put my mind to it. Couple a few years experience in the works and I already have a pretty decent alternate career set up where I’m free to go anywhere. 

With that freedom in mind, I still think I’m not ready to get out of here just yet. I need a larger savings if I’m going to take a risk and go out to California, despite how confident I am in finding work in that field (communications). The benefits of California are incredible though. I already have a vehicle that would pass the test, could find temporary work as some type of dispatch, and could work towards branching out into (3d art) game development. At the very least, secure a job as a tester to break in. Doing all of this, and taking care of my usual costs — ~$700 monthly for loans/car/insurance/gas/cc pay — meaning I’d have little left for the things I enjoy after supporting my own residence because Frank doesn’t want to room up in one of the most expensive cities to live in the world. But I can respect that. I liked having my own apartment in Orlando. The whole “just do it” mentality never works as advice. It’s implying we should act now and think/react later. Proper planning is leading me to think I should bank at least $3000 in general savings AFTER first month expenses to feel secure in a new city. 

Alternatively I could seek new living arrangements here in Myrtle Beach, more likely in the Conway area close to work. This would provide the freedom I’m looking for, but it cuts into my ambitions too much of putting money away and then leaving for greener pastures. Effectively delaying my flight and delaying my advancement in life. 

I should be able to live comfortably on my salary, but this is really stretching it even while living at home. I know I waste a lot and corners can be cut all over the place to reduce the use—but in the end these creature comforts are what we live for on the most basic first world level. 24k annual sounds like a lot(not really), but I feel that this economy calls for much higher. I could probably do things alright with 30k HERE IN MB, but in Cali I’d probably only feel safe with somewhere around 35. For someone who didn’t go to college, this is a great salary for my age. But I spent the money. I got the education. I’m paying for it dearly now and it wasn’t worth it.

Without loan payments I’d be fine the rest of my life. I suppose I should bank on winning the lottery being my saving grace, or some other stupid idealistic goal.

Bought a Prius. I think it’s kind of awesome. 

Here’s a post about things I hate.

I hate my iphone.

I hate the skype app.

I hate how it disconnects your call when you raise the phone to your ear.

I hate touch screens.

I hate having fat fingers and such a little keyboard.

I hate not having swype on an android phone.

I hate not having a physical keyboard.

I hate how Apple is doing yearly releases.

I hate siri when it doesn’t work.

I hate car dealerships.

I hate driving behind a big truck with high lights and my back car window is foggy.

I hate having to wade through 3 pandora ads before I can find out who the artist is.

I hate how unoriginal tumblr is.

I hate that people are too lazy to blog and would rather tweet.

I hate public posts vaguely directed at someone I don’t know.

I hate all football posts.

I hate baby pictures.

I hate being the guy behind the guy in line ordering meals for the entire construction site.

I hate people who only hit me up when they need something.

I hate green apples.

I hate that there’s no wikipedia size outlet for automobiles to find fixes for specific problems.

I hate going to GameStop and being harassed to buy other shit the entire time.

I hate red cars.

I hate elitists who “only vape” and give other people shit for carcinogens. 

I hate athiests who belittle christians and other religions for not adopting to their cool edgy ‘religion’.

I hate girls who’s favorite game is Portal.

I hate anyone who calls a VN a video game.

I hate people why say they hate X music genre. 

I hate people who pick the UMP over the MP5.

I hate how overpriced HDMI cables are in some stores.

I hate people who drive a truck with an immaculate bed.

I hate anyone who says “le” before something, except but i’m le tired. 

I hate how I’m supposed to drop everything and watch a youtube video with anyone and then have to give my opinion.

I hate when I’m not alone in a public bathroom.

I’ve been playing the crap out of Dota2 lately. I can’t believe it’s free. Then again I loved the old free custom wc3map versions too.. Check it out if you haven’t.